I couldn't decide yesterday to audition or not to.
I think I managed to Annoy Olive to that fact.
But almost at the end of the day. A surge of confidence filled me.
And Its Decided.
I had always thought of trying out, but something always held me back.
A lot of things actually.
But I had fun today. Though I may not seem like it. I had fun.
But it was sad that Cher had to leave.
There is a reason for everything right?
I don't mean, 'THX god no cher'!!!
It's true that I was a little dissapointed and very sad! I was thinking,
now I don't have a partner! And I find it most comfortable doing it
with Cher than the other people there.
And we would be doing it together! It would be fun!
And during that moment... I was split in playing 2 characters.
When Cher left,
Levi too had no partner.
But her script was Good. She picked the right scene to show
how well you are able to display your character.
So in the end i was the last to enter the audition room,
and played the role i had second in mind.
Surprisingly, the nervous breakdown ME that everyone
used to know.. Even TEACHERS... that nervous breakdown
wasn't with me the whole day. I was calm. I had confidence.
I did my best to pull it off. I just do my part the way I would do it.
Not a copying some other move, like a mistake I did in AFS.
I felt different, felt nostalgic, felt nice, felt comfortable,
felt like i was having fun. Though, i discriminate myself at times,
I was definitely stronger today.

And I will be each day!

Forgive me Cher,
that I actually had the fun and you had to leave.
And... To others if I annoyed you in a way.

The beautiful day...
5:12 AM