i cant do anything anymore.

i'm sure you hate me alot right now.

its up to you what u wanna do to me.

up to u what u decide.

up to u to break or what.

i cant pull u back.

i dont have the power or right to do that.

i release u.

no matter what happens in the future i just want u to carry our good memories.

leave the bad ones behind.

cus carrying the bad memories is pain. and you'll b stuck in the past.

just like when your with me. u r still stuck in ur past in a way.

when your with me, u still talk about your ex mainly bad memories.

so I am a little upset to c you that way cus its like, haunting u.

that's what i see la.

so if anything happen in the future i don't want u to carry our bad memories cus it wont do u any good.

I just want u to only keep the good memories.

I know bad memories are hard to forget and its impossible to forget.

I really am sorry for all the pain I put you through.

but that’s all not something I wanted to happen.

I know it’s hard to forgive me.

deep down inside inside your heart I know I still can find me sitting there.

Inside your heart just waiting for u to once again accept me.

my feelings for u are special.

I know that even if in the future.

I know even if I found someone else my feelings for u r still special.

I am very sure about it. You are someone I completely trust and love.

You are the one that I cannot loose.

I don’t know what am I going to do without you in my life.

My mouth said I wish you will be happy with another girl or without.

But actually deep down inside I don’t want you to be happy with another girl, because I still love you deeply.

I really wish I was the one. The one you will always love.

Cus you are the one I will always always love and you are in a very special place in my heart.

I gave my all. And you left me.

You said it was temporary. I have faith in you I really do.

That is why I still hope for that miracle to happen.

Maybe it won’t happen but still I am hoping.

Hoping so hard. I just can’t bare with reality anymore.

I rather stay in my dreams forever even if its just a dream.

Even its just a lie I make for myself. Because it will be less pain.

I am going trough more pain than I can bare.

You told me before that I am the first person who make you feel true love.

The one who first gave you a special feeling even though you were with your ex for over a year you didn’t felt what you felt when you were with me.

They say when you give a guy all he wants, he quickly gets bored.

Is that true?

Are you bored of me now? I don’t know what is the answer.

You told me plenty of times to find a better guy. Why?

What happen to the time when you hold me and look me in the eyes

and tell me that you love me?

To hear that is like cutting a little bit of my heart.

I hear it over and over again. I’m numb.

I really don’t want anyone else.

What am I going to do if you really forgot all about me?

I’m in so much pain, so much pain than I can bare.

What am I going to do?

I don’t know.

All I know is I still love you.

Because I still love you.

Although I say I hate you now,

I’ll miss you and love you even more…

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