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Thank god for Sunday, January 24, 2010

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Suddenly. . .it feels like many years had passed.

Many things changed. . .

Suddenly it seems like we are so far apart. . .

Further than strangers. . .

Suddenly. . .

Even the colour pink reminds me about a lot of things

cotton candy

sweet memories

of me and you

i can remember the way you smile at me when we went out for the first time

i can remember the look on your face when i surprisingly show up

i can remember the look on you face when you are shy

i can remember the way you act like a kid

i can remember the things you said

i can remember the way you wipe my sweats

i can remember the way you let me hug you when the train moves

i can remember how you eat prawns

i can remember the way you say "you're a girl, should bring tissue"

then you will give me a packet of tissue when i ran out of tissue

i use those tissue very careful and not to waste it

i can remember the way you tell me about the plans you have in you mind

whenever you talk about those plans, your eyes sparkles

you will give me this special feeling

i really wished whatever you and i planed will work out

but. . .

none of them happened

i can remember the way you laugh

it gives me a really warm feeling when i see you laugh

sometimes my heart will beat sooooo fast when i see you

especially when you dress up and styled your hair

seeing you all dressed up and your hair nicely styled, i just wanna mess it ><

i just want to mess your hair and see you angry that i mess your hair ^^

it's cute to see you angry that i mess your hair ^^

it's cute when you are shy

it's cute when you don't know certain things and i will explain to you

it's cute to see you that way, like a cute little boy ^^

it's cute to see lean on me when you are sad or having migraine

i feel very happy to be able to let you lean on me

i am happy that you are true to me. you did not hide your tears

to see your tears is something to me

they make me wanna protect you even more

they make me want to not leave you side and to walk with you

Every time when i'm waiting for you to arrive, i am nervous

When you arrived i got even more nervous

But after you came to hold my hands, i felt safe

i felt that you won't let go of me

that you will continue to hold my hand, tightly

your palm is warm and big ^^ holding my small hands

when i hug you, all my worries and those grey clouds above my head

seems to fade away quickly

i feel so secure and so warm to be in your arms

i feel very 'xing fu'

just a pat on my head i feel that you will take good care of me

When you're by my side even the worse thing that happen to me seem to be a tiny problem

but now. . . .

i don't feel all that anymore

even when i am sitting right beside you

i feel so far apart from you

so so far that i cannot reach you

the way you turn your back on me. . .

it really hurts

so lonely. . .

so empty. . .

so cold. . .

you are now so so far from me. . .

you are no longer by my side

you no longer protect me from all the storms

you no longer lean on me

you no longer give me warmth

you no longer keep me with you

i cannot feel your presence anymore

i cannot feel your warmth anymore

i cannot feel my heart anymore

i cannot smile anymore

i don' know how to cry anymore

everything seems so dull

every chocolate taste bitter

i can no longer make myself happy

i can no longer lie to myself

but now. . . i realise i can only pray for you

there's nothing else i can do for you

every night i pray that you are safe, you are healthy,

you are guided to the correct path,

you know what you want,

somehow i know i still can find me somewhere in your heart

somehow i still wanna stay by your side even if you left me

i still wanna be the one supporting you

protecting you

giving you a push

The beautiful day...
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