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Thank god
for Wednesday, March 31, 2010
this is my right eye btw xD
ok...the REAL STORY -->
On Thursday , my dad went to Optical shop A to test his eye power and subsequently hopes to purchase a new pair of spectacle as he felt that his eye powers have increased tremendously , thus , he brought my mum and me into the shop to ask us about the opinions on what frame suits best for him for his brand new spectacle .
Since i was there , my parents are eager to know about my eye power and how high has it increased....Honestly , i was worried because i'm usually worried about any test about health / eye / etc...i'm a hypochondriac btw...
Thus , when they tested both of my eyes , the Optometrist told me that my right eye power is only 30 but my left eye power is 350..and my left eye is a lazy eye...
so ok......i'm used to the " lazy eye " term since i had my first spectacle way back in 2003 until now...but he told me that
" your lazy eye power is really high , you WILL go blind "
I was shocked at that instance......especially when he added..
" you are too late for treatment..you should see the Opthamologist for further evaluation and treatment.. who ask you not to wear your spectacles often..you should wear it 24/7"
double shock..i think i was nearly gonna cry but i held back my tears...and my parents were shocked as well and my mother was scolding me for NOT wearing my spectacles so often...
Later , my parents and me went to Optical shop B for a second opinion , thus , i was actually acting that i just want to test my eye power there....At optical shop B , my right eye is 50 and my left eye is 300.....
The Optometrist working in optical shop B also confirms that i have lazy eye ( my left eye that is ) ..my mother scolded me there as well for not wearing my spectacle often....and the person also tell me that i should wear my specs often and if i did last time , it still can be prevented...Besides , she told me that my eye won't go blind , but it will just be very very blur.....thus , very very blur and blind makes not much difference because i'm still unable to distinguish images and colours..
thus , The feeling of Guilt and fear overwhelms me....i think i'm going explode at that moment...but still i held my tears and fears ......
I sms-ed someone after that...and i think i made that person very worried as well.. ( SRY ! ) but i was really worried as we walked to a hospital to meet the Opthamologist....( thank God Annie's boyfriend told me before that he knew this Opthamologist that cured his brother's rare eye condition and that he recovered with perfect vision )
that thought comforts me a little...but being a very curious person about everything . I practically kinda know infos about what kind of diseases that can link to my eye condition and etc...so that kind of informations actually scares me ( a lot of times actually )....
When we reached the hospital , the receptionist told us that she is not in and that I should visit the doctor on saturday since Friday is her day off....So we made an appointment and left....
The next day , i was very worried , i checked and searched the internet for informations about Amblyopia and hopes and percentages of healing and etc...and other eye conditions as well.....
Going to cell group actually comforts me a lot...at least i can leave my THIS HUGE worry behind and understand more about God and meet up with my friends....by that time , only a few people know about my eye...and i just do not want to tell everyone ( worried that they might be worried as well ) and i decided that after my doctor's visit then i will tell everyone about my testimonial...good or bad..
I prayed a simple prayer that night , asking him to heal my hopeless left eye for the glory of his kingdom..i want this to be a testimonial for my friends to know and strengthen my faith in him..i think he knows i need these kind of things to come back to him since we are aware that i was kinda drifting away from God at that moment....
Someone also prayed for me ( Thank you loads !! ) and i really appreaciate it...i was able to sleep peacefully that night but i was kinda nauseatic the next morning and even woke up with a stomach ache since Friday ( because I was worried about my eye ) ....
Reached the hospital at 11.15am....Honestly , I HATE hospitals !! a lot !! the colour , the environment...ARGHHH !! When i was there , my dad even shocked me even more...saying that my eye might need some kind of surgery.....i really panicked ......but managed to joke back a little by saying that he is eating the sweet so that he will have awesome breath because the doctor is a woman xD ( just to ease my thought a little )
I thought that even though my appointment is at 11am , i will be in her room and out few minutes later...But I was VERY WRONG....
I ended up waiting for 2 LONG and AGONIZING hours there ...( you know , your mind can be more deadly than your body... ) But I spent my time there talking about the MCA elections with my dad and we end up criticising Dr. CSL to the max while hearing my mum's phone blasting with Lady Gaga's Bad Romance =.= ...( i keep asking her to lower the volume more ) ...
My parents also talked about me being a potential lawyer and it's good because they can sue people for free =.= ...( after the maid fomema thingy and my mum thingy ) haha... and i was critisizing about hospitals about the environments and etc...
" If i'm an architect , i'm going to change the landscape , change the environment , change the colour , make it resort like...etc ( like prince hospital..but it would cost a lot lols xD ) .."
and we also talked about doctors....saying that Doctor A looks odd , Doctor B looks young but not sure about her experiences...and Doctor C looks like a Gangster ! ( really man......) and we keep seeing Doctor A walking infront of me loads of times...and my mum even joked to me that he's interested in me =.='' to the max....
besides , the sound of baby crying in Treatment room A frightens me more....especially when he came out of the room with his face flushing red with the cute Winnie The Pooh " costume " ( He is REALLY REALLY SUPER DUPER cute !! "
I told my dad , " oh shoot.....will I be like that later in the room ? "
he said that the treatment room and the another room does not link...so that comforts me quite a lot lols xD Btw , we even met one of the parent of a student and the student herself of my parents music school...a little cute girl...
i think i was kinda embarassed because she kept seeing my nervous face and me walking about the area reading about informations lols xD
At that moment , i saw an old uncle went into a laser room with the Opthamologist....i was kinda freaking out because the equipments in there was kinda freaky ( x-ray or something ) i was seriously worried and begun to imagine what if they found some growth in my eye that block my veins thus cause my blurred visions...but that moment , i was just making hasty and rough conclusions about my condition of my eye...
When the assistant called Chew Meng Kang ( another patient ) i thought it was Chermaine Kang...thus , i went to the table really fast and that was really really embarrasing >< anymore =")" 250 =".="" 30 =" crazy..." well ="D" xd =" NOT" days =".="" friday ="D" myopia =" far" near =".="" width="480" height="385">
The beautiful day...
2:31 AM
2:31 AM
Thank god
for Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Here's a song i fell in love with recently. It's run by Epik High. Epik High never fails to amaze me ^~^ here's the video and lyric translation to RUN
Run, run, run away….
Run, run, run away….
Run, run, run away….
No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Run, run, runaway.
If I look back while running (You’re still there).
[Mithra's Verse]
It’s pitch dark.
The world moves on too fast.
I’m the only one who’s limping on both legs.
The path I must walk is endless.
What’s at the end of this path?
Are you going there knowing about it?
Will I learn the answers if I go there with my eyes closed?
The sky that never responds to a such question.
The two arms tied up by daily life are too heavy to embrace dreams.
I’m scared, I’ve been abandoned locked away.
Just for today run somewhere like your crazy.
[Bridge]
Run till you can touch the sky with your hands.
Run till your heart is filled with your dreams.
Everybody run, run, run away…
No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Everybody run, run, runaway…
If I look back while running (You’re still there).
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
Away…
No matter how much I run, I’m still on the same spot.
[Tablo's Verse]
My life is a rainy night that rains 365 days.
A heart that gets smaller every 24 hours.
I even hid the small comma and its tail,
I even hid the small comma and its tail,
then the future that awaits me becomes a period…
Carry the new day on your shoulder and run.
What am I running towards?
Whether if the sun’s setting or I if I’m losing…
I don’t know.
But I go.
Keep on runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ high.
I’m the young star that has been abandoned by the galaxy.
[Bridge]
Run till you can touch the sky with your hands.
Run till your heart is filled with your dreams.
Everybody run, run, run away…
No matter how much I run (I can’t escape from it).
Everybody run, run, runaway…
If I look back while running (You’re still there).
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
Away…
No matter how much I run, I’m still on the same spot.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
You got me runnin’ runnin’ runnin’ around.
Down, down, down.
Away…
For you, who’s running endlessly.
P.S Tablo's voice is the best!! ><
The beautiful day...
7:13 AM
7:13 AM
Thank god
for Thursday, March 25, 2010
Here's a story about a boy and a girl
They lived together for some time now. After years, the girl have to go back to where she came from. A place far far away from the boy. Over there, is a place where the girl called home. A place where her parents are there. A place where everything is easier for her.
The boy wanted her to stay. He doesn't want her to leave. But, he dare not tell her that. He is afraid that if he didn't let her go, she will have to go through hardships with him.
The girl, waited for the boy to ask her to not leave. She waited until they reached the airport. He did not say a single word. Then, the girl gave the boy a cute stuffed pig. She said to him 'pat her head whenever you miss me'. She smiled and waled away. She did not look back.
The boy was walking outside. Suddenly it rained. Soon he realised he did the stupidest thing ever. He forgot to ask for her new place's number and address. He was very upset. Soaked in the rain, he walk home.
Everyday, he waited for her call, but she did not call. Whenever he misses her, he pats the pig's head. Everywhere he goes and everything he does, he sees her. There's nothing he can do.
Three months had passed. He decided to move on and stop this torture. He thought maybe she had forgot about him. Maybe she found a better guy. He stepped out of the house with the pig in his hands. He looked at it for a moment. pats her head once and gave it to the neighbour's little daughter. She was very happy to see that cute stuffed pig. She thank the boy over and over again smilling happily looking at it.
That night, he couldn't sleep. No matter how hard he tried to forget her, her image is always in his head. Now that the stuffed pig she gave him is not with him anymore there's nothing he can do. Tears flow down his cheeks. Soon he fell asleep.
*knock! knock! knock!*
*knock! knock! knock!*
He walks to the door. Opened it. He saw the little girl next door. She looked at him and said
'i think this lil' piggy is a magical pig. yesterday when i was patting her head, this paper came out from her mouth! i think this piggy loves big brother very much and doesn't want big brother to leave her' He took the pig and the pink paper. On the pink paper wrote the girl's number and address.
The truth is the girl had this pig custom made so that the pink paper will come out after the pig is patted 99 times.
The boy quickly buys air ticket to get to the girl. The boy and the girl nearly missed their chance to be with each other.
In this story, they put each other into 'kao yen' . We always put our partner into 'kao yen'. Sometimes we do things like, 'if he call me for the eighth time i will answer' or 'if he confess to me again i will accept him' etc etc etc. . . .but think about it again sometimes all this 'kao yen' does put us into trouble right.
They lived together for some time now. After years, the girl have to go back to where she came from. A place far far away from the boy. Over there, is a place where the girl called home. A place where her parents are there. A place where everything is easier for her.
The boy wanted her to stay. He doesn't want her to leave. But, he dare not tell her that. He is afraid that if he didn't let her go, she will have to go through hardships with him.
The girl, waited for the boy to ask her to not leave. She waited until they reached the airport. He did not say a single word. Then, the girl gave the boy a cute stuffed pig. She said to him 'pat her head whenever you miss me'. She smiled and waled away. She did not look back.
The boy was walking outside. Suddenly it rained. Soon he realised he did the stupidest thing ever. He forgot to ask for her new place's number and address. He was very upset. Soaked in the rain, he walk home.
Everyday, he waited for her call, but she did not call. Whenever he misses her, he pats the pig's head. Everywhere he goes and everything he does, he sees her. There's nothing he can do.
Three months had passed. He decided to move on and stop this torture. He thought maybe she had forgot about him. Maybe she found a better guy. He stepped out of the house with the pig in his hands. He looked at it for a moment. pats her head once and gave it to the neighbour's little daughter. She was very happy to see that cute stuffed pig. She thank the boy over and over again smilling happily looking at it.
That night, he couldn't sleep. No matter how hard he tried to forget her, her image is always in his head. Now that the stuffed pig she gave him is not with him anymore there's nothing he can do. Tears flow down his cheeks. Soon he fell asleep.
*knock! knock! knock!*
*knock! knock! knock!*
He walks to the door. Opened it. He saw the little girl next door. She looked at him and said
'i think this lil' piggy is a magical pig. yesterday when i was patting her head, this paper came out from her mouth! i think this piggy loves big brother very much and doesn't want big brother to leave her' He took the pig and the pink paper. On the pink paper wrote the girl's number and address.
The truth is the girl had this pig custom made so that the pink paper will come out after the pig is patted 99 times.
The boy quickly buys air ticket to get to the girl. The boy and the girl nearly missed their chance to be with each other.
In this story, they put each other into 'kao yen' . We always put our partner into 'kao yen'. Sometimes we do things like, 'if he call me for the eighth time i will answer' or 'if he confess to me again i will accept him' etc etc etc. . . .but think about it again sometimes all this 'kao yen' does put us into trouble right.
The beautiful day...
8:50 AM
8:50 AM
Thank god
for Wednesday, March 24, 2010
why do i feel like crying all of a sudden?
why can't i feel my warm heart?
why is my heart aching all of a sudden?
You are my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I only remember you
Maybe i'll see you again someday,
Maybe i'll bump into you while walking to that shop,
To walk the road i walked with you,
I walked around the long way, thinking maybe you'll be there
I tried to be happy
I tried to smile
Pretending that everything's fine
I sang our song
Tears flow down my pink cheeks
I tried to hide it
I sang out all my heart
You changed your number,
But i kept mine, hoping that one day,you will find me again
We haven't forget each other yet,
Going separate ways,
Actually i want to see you,
I miss you like crazy,
I'll continue to wait. . .and wait. . .
But sometimes, i stop to wonder
Are you doing the same thing?
Are you feeling what i'm feeling?
You left this dark circle
Left me all alone,
I couldn't see a thing,
I can't find my way out,
I can't lie to myself anymore,
It's not working anymore,
You are my first love,
The person who taught me love,
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you
"Lets start again"
I want you to say to me
I can't see nor hear you
But I'm still holding on to you
Getting soaked by the pouring rain
I go to the place we first met
Stayed. . .
Waited. . .
Hoping that I'll see you
I feel so pathetic
I can't endure this feeling anymore
I love you too much
I'll try to endure
It takes some effort
Maybe I'll see you by coincidence,
Looking in the mirror, I wipe my tears
"He'll see your tears. Don't cry"
i said to myself
You are my first love,
The person who taught me love,
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you
You said you'll show me forever
You said you'll hold my hands and never let go
You said you'll protect me
I guessed you lied
You never meant things you said
Making empty promises kills me
Goodbye my first love. . .
Goodbye forever is the forever i believed in
why can't i feel my warm heart?
why is my heart aching all of a sudden?
You are my first love
The person who taught me love
Never forget you
I remember you
I only remember you
Maybe i'll see you again someday,
Maybe i'll bump into you while walking to that shop,
To walk the road i walked with you,
I walked around the long way, thinking maybe you'll be there
I tried to be happy
I tried to smile
Pretending that everything's fine
I sang our song
Tears flow down my pink cheeks
I tried to hide it
I sang out all my heart
You changed your number,
But i kept mine, hoping that one day,you will find me again
We haven't forget each other yet,
Going separate ways,
Actually i want to see you,
I miss you like crazy,
I'll continue to wait. . .and wait. . .
But sometimes, i stop to wonder
Are you doing the same thing?
Are you feeling what i'm feeling?
You left this dark circle
Left me all alone,
I couldn't see a thing,
I can't find my way out,
I can't lie to myself anymore,
It's not working anymore,
You are my first love,
The person who taught me love,
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you
"Lets start again"
I want you to say to me
I can't see nor hear you
But I'm still holding on to you
Getting soaked by the pouring rain
I go to the place we first met
Stayed. . .
Waited. . .
Hoping that I'll see you
I feel so pathetic
I can't endure this feeling anymore
I love you too much
I'll try to endure
It takes some effort
Maybe I'll see you by coincidence,
Looking in the mirror, I wipe my tears
"He'll see your tears. Don't cry"
i said to myself
You are my first love,
The person who taught me love,
Never forget you
I remember you
I remember only you
You said you'll show me forever
You said you'll hold my hands and never let go
You said you'll protect me
I guessed you lied
You never meant things you said
Making empty promises kills me
Goodbye my first love. . .
Goodbye forever is the forever i believed in
The beautiful day...
10:09 AM
10:09 AM
Thank god
for Friday, March 19, 2010
ello~!! finally i'm back again. hehe. well, i don't know what to say and where to start.
i remember i have loads to post here but -.- now i don't remember any.
Now, i am free from YOUR claws and control.
and YOU"RE free to go for other girls [idc]
but i am still keeping every promise i made cus i am not a promise breaker!!
there's only 1 promise left. after that i am completely done with you.
Be friends? yeah sure not a problem ^~^
To me YOU really are someone very special but after all that you did to me,
i can't love you the way i used to . . . . not anymore.
To you, i have attitude problem and i always lie.
but to me, i don't have attitude problem. it is you
the way you look at everything the way you judge everything.
YOU look at this beautiful world through a key hole.
here's some advice for you, as a good friend as someone who cares about you
Please try listening to others with your heart.
Please try looking at things in a different angle not just your angle.
Please treat a girl like how you should.
Please stop being so selfish.
You think you are always right and people are wrong.
You are self centered.
Sometimes, you should really listen to what other people have to say.
Don't runaway like you always did.
Stand up and face it.
Stop making the right person feel wrong when YOU are the one who is wrong.
i remember i have loads to post here but -.- now i don't remember any.
Now, i am free from YOUR claws and control.
and YOU"RE free to go for other girls [idc]
but i am still keeping every promise i made cus i am not a promise breaker!!
there's only 1 promise left. after that i am completely done with you.
Be friends? yeah sure not a problem ^~^
To me YOU really are someone very special but after all that you did to me,
i can't love you the way i used to . . . . not anymore.
To you, i have attitude problem and i always lie.
but to me, i don't have attitude problem. it is you
the way you look at everything the way you judge everything.
YOU look at this beautiful world through a key hole.
here's some advice for you, as a good friend as someone who cares about you
Please try listening to others with your heart.
Please try looking at things in a different angle not just your angle.
Please treat a girl like how you should.
Please stop being so selfish.
You think you are always right and people are wrong.
You are self centered.
Sometimes, you should really listen to what other people have to say.
Don't runaway like you always did.
Stand up and face it.
Stop making the right person feel wrong when YOU are the one who is wrong.
The beautiful day...
8:55 AM
8:55 AM
Thank god
for Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Hey guys just wanna share this e-mail i received. have fun reading!
YOU HAVE TO 
THIS!!!
God Said NO!!
I hope that you can get the effects on your computers!
The words are great, but the movements of the faces add a lot....
I asked God to take away my habit. 
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away,
but for you to give it up. 
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole, his body is only temporary.
I asked God to grant me patience. 
God said, No. Patience is a byproduct of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.
I asked God to give me happiness. 
God said, No.
I give you blessings;
Happiness is up to you.
I asked God to spare me pain. 
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from
worldly cares
and brings you closer to me. 
I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.
I asked God for all things
that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life,
so that you may enjoy all things. 
I asked God to help me LOVE others, as much as He loves me.
God said... Ahhhh,
finally you have the idea. 
If you love God, send this to ten people and back to the person that sent it. 
THIS DAY IS YOURS
DON'T THROW IT AWAY 
May God Bless You,
'To the world you might be one person,
But to one person you just might be the world'
'May the Lord Bless you and keep you,
May the Lord Make his face shine upon you,
And give you Peace......Forever'
'Good friends are like stars....
You don't always see them, But you know they are always there.
The beautiful day...
6:19 AM
6:19 AM
Weeee~ i love that picture. let's do that!! i'll go your house and paint that! yay! thursday is our big day!! SPM results!! i'm kinda excited. Can't wait to get it. Well, i'm not hoping for aything since i was soooooo lazy and free and easy during SPM. So i won't be expecting anything nice to see in that paper. Well let's see.....where should we go after taking the results and what time are you guys going? well recently i've been feeling......i don't know how to describe. but it's not good. my insomnia is also back. i've had hard time sleeping and i have to wake up at 6 everyday. argh....bad mood. lazy to blog ady.
The beautiful day...
6:00 AM
6:00 AM
Thank god
for Sunday, March 7, 2010
We should take pictures like that. Want?
I'm so free... I can prepare... but of course not
exactly like this! Eh Yeng! Come my house!
let's do this and take pictures! WEEEEEEEEEE~
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG
I'm So Happy For Thursday I Don't Know Why!
At the same time... Whooosh,... The feeling is .. haha!
Today I feel like doing nothing. :P
The beautiful day...
10:51 PM
10:51 PM
you're late! 0 Messages
ALWAYS AN HOUR LATE!
I'm so sorry.
The beautiful day...
9:19 AM
9:19 AM
Thank god
for Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Wahh ! i didn't blog for so long d !!
Congrats Yeng !!! you passed d !! i can't wait to be in your car !!
coz i love YOUR CAR !! AND HAHA XD wanna be your passenger hehe xD
lols !! on the road was actually better than parkings and etc lols xD even though the person beside you looks a little unfriendly xD haha xD
Come to think about it ,
i really thank God that i passed my test ( on the road )
because really......i didn't drive...and my driving sucks....and i didn't bribe lols xD
EVEN MY INSTRUCTOR DIDN'T EXPECT ME TO PASS
( That's how bad my techniques are xD )
AND hehe xD
sure...but
wahh...after spm results ( same day )
geng la you xD
The beautiful day...
7:28 AM
7:28 AM